Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Finally defeated

He stared away, as the world moved around him,
And he rotted inside as he could not bear,

The needles boring into his soul,
The pricks of a mind desolate.
 
He tried and tried, to get away,
But the ghosts haunted him all day,
And when the voices finally stopped,
His walls broken, himself uncorked.
 
He was bare to the world,
Open to pain, and all hurt,
And the reapers came and slashed across,
The darkening core this man had got.
 
And the fatal miscarriage inside him,
His sheared black soul, wearing thin,
Was pulled apart and torn away,
To leave a hollow shell astray.
 
His hopes and dreams all crushed and strewn,
On the field along with wounded soul hewn,
His withering figure shrunk to his bones,
Eyes losing their spark, enervated.
 
Nowhere to go, he knew what this was, 
His final failure, his disgrace sparked,
And in his final wheezing breaths,
A horrid smile lit up his face.
 
For he, who had been king of kings,
Come where his enemies vanquished had been,
The last defeat on that battlefield,
Was the defeat of his conquering soul.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Musings on a bus

Warning: I wrote this while on a bus on a trip with friends to Coorg, amongst a busy cacophony, so it might not upto the mark, but eh, here goes.

Sitting in a bus riding along, my thoughts travel alongside. Racing ahead, they seem to always come back to where I am. Even after piercing through the veil of time, they move forward back to where I am.

My friends and I revel in the simple joy of companionship. No one speaks, because there is no need to. The songs in the background permeate us, taking deeper into ourselves, barely touching the moment. And in the end, it comes down to this.

The moment.

Where else will you find joy? Happiness is an abstract concept that I have not identified with, but joy we have all experienced. Be it after a long, tiring day when you get some good tidings, or when you meet someone after a long time. Winning a competition, or achieving something, all those experiences give you joy. And that is something found only in the moment. I seem at a loss to describe it, but suffice to say that I am, at the moment, joyous.

Speaking about things in the moment, there another feeling that fits the description. It is something so rare today, that you find it only in the fleeting breaks in between our mangles lives. It is peace. The contentment of just being. Another feeling I see around me right now. The world has been reduced to the confines of our bus, and the scenery rapidly falling behind. And it all seems peaceful, like it was meant to be. Ah, which reminds me, let me get out of this reverie, and into my moment ;).